I used to shy away from being tagged as religious because I had a notion of it being synonymous to righteous. I don’t think I can regard myself as a righteous one because I feel that I will never be free of sins or occasional guilt. I am always a work in progress.
What is admirable from our community is that we are acknowledging human flaws, a commitment of trying to make things right, being a family to one another (bonus: singing 80’s OPM songs after service).
As disciples, we were taught to surrender, raise our hands, and close our eyes feeling the lines of each worship song. At first, I find it quite weird when people sing worship songs with eyes closed, raising their hands upward – wala akong maramdaman, I told to myself, “OA naman nila.”. There’s a point of service yesterday when we were singing With All I Am by Hillsong that I closed my eyes and actually felt each verse. May nakapagsabi sa akin before, when you sing praises, it’s like you are praying twice.
The verse for today fits the current indefinite high of experiencing yesterday’s activity.
1 Peter 4:16
However, if you suffer as a Christian, do not be ashamed, but praise God that you bear that name.
Weekly service has changed me to be more accepting, vocal of spreading the good word, actualizing what is being preached in the Bible. Hindi naman isang araw nagising ako, I want to serve through our community. I think it’s gradual. All these testimonials from our service somehow affect how I decide in life.
I prayed for the gift of wisdom, a light to the world. I take comfort in making a positive impact or praying for others in silence. In all aspects of life, I always believe that action speaks louder than words. I used to think that doing good is enough, I came to realize that declaring my faith or sharing it with others as well might help them grow their spiritual life. For me, that is what being a vessel of love means. If doing these make me identify by others as religious, so be it. We are singing for Him and I think we shouldn’t be ashamed to surrender with closed eyes, raising both our hands and singing passionately when we worship.